Those days when, after your shower, you’re doing your regular daily sciatica exercises and you realize that, “hey… things aren’t as bad as earlier this week. I’m stretching further, and breathing deeper. I feel stronger.” It’s a strange and wonderful feeling in contrast to six days ago when you couldn’t walk properly or take stairs.
And as you’re lying on your back, you reflect: sometimes bad things will just happen, but it takes work to make good and positive things for yourself and others. And that’s okay. It’s good, even. It means it’s always worth working at being better.
Firstly, Canzine was great: sat next to a great friend/human, met cool people, sold some stuff. Tried to flirt with cute boys: probably failed. Thank you so much to all those who came out, and to all those who couldn’t: I still have some stock left, so I’ll probably make a post about that in November and y’all can order things for Statutory December Gift Giving Holiday or something.
I was invited to design some bow ties for Nude Voice Apparel; the photo shoot was last week so I’ll let you know when they’re up on the site! It’s been really great working with this company: very excited for future things.
I’ve been working on a potential commission: I’ve pattern drafted and made a neck tie, a new bow tie pattern, and pocket sampler. More on that soon?
I’m also working on some items that will be part of the Buddies in Bad Times Theatre auction fundraiser: ARTATTACK! I’m really excited to be a part of this, as I have quite a long history with Buddies. And I adore the organizer, Keith Cole.
And then there’s my birthday: that’s in a week. Birthdays are a big deal for me. I really love to celebrate my birthday, but I have no idea what to do with myself this year. Spend the day baking? Hmph.
I need to watch/listen to stuff while I work. I just finished re-watching all of QI and That Mitchell and Webb Look, and I’ve been hobbling along with some stand up comedy specials… but nothing compares to WHO. I get way more done when I watch Doctor Who while working, because I enjoy it more than the internet and am thus less distracted.
And then it suddenly hits you: this is your life. All of it. Not just the big events, every single moment. Making your bed. Checking the weather. Waiting for the coffee. Your first waking thought of the day. Bending down to pick up your dropped phone. The outside air hitting your face. Step over step over step over step. And you’re never waiting for life to begin. Life is happening, has been happening, and you’re doing so many things to have it keep happening. Every day you live. Every moment you’re alive. And it’s overwhelming how joyous and terrifying that is.
the problem with having attractive and talented friends:
sometimes you find yourself attracted to them, and because they’re good and talented people, you cannot rationalize yourself out of not being attracted to them by pretending/assuming they’re an asshole: you know they aren’t.
why can’t you just make gay clones of your friends?
of course I’m thinking of someone in particular.
Now that I am this side of Convocation, I should probably make some, like, goals, or something? Whatever. Aside from looking and applying for jobs every.single.day, I want to fill June with some fun and productive things too. So maybe if I share my plans with y’all, I will feel more obliged and guilty to follow through with them.
-make more bow ties, including one (two?) to send to Bill Nye
-start/make this Monster (or variation thereupon) as a puppet
-spend a week in Muskoka at my parents’ place organizing all of their stuff that they don’t have time to do but since they are currently supporting my broke and unemployed self this seems like a good way for them not to resent me. Also: Muskoka in June.
-Pride things? Ugh, I have mixed feelings about Pride, which are pretty well summarized here.
-read lots, especially in the sun (if it gets sunny again)
I mean, on here. As an introvert, my silence in the “real” world, is to be expected, but I tend to make noise on here even if little is happening in my “real” life (which is mostly the case right now).
But while I am enjoying hiding myself from most of the “real” world (I don’t owe them ANYTHING) it would be remiss of me not to say a quick hello to my great and wonderful tumblr followers, who have been rich in their support of my work over the weeks, months, and years.
Since completing my degree four weeks ago, I have filled my time mostly with some serious READING and ANXIETY and JOB HUNTING. But I have also made a monster for a friend, been featured in an article (interview to come), and been interviewed for a local blog, both about I AM A MONSTER, and my bow tie designs.
On that note, once I return to my home studio in Toronto (I am currently at my parents’ home in Muskoka) tomorrow, I shall begin a bow tie making frenzy. A damn fine friend of mine has challenged me to Bow Tie Thursdays, and I will endeavour to make him stylish and exquisite bow ties that he can show off (on Thursdays).
Getting back in to making will also have me posting more, both of which I love to do.
tl;dnr: Y’ALL R GR8.
Like, I am okay with someone or someones paying me to make awesome things.
I am really, really okay with this.
I keep forgetting that while I am close, I am not yet a functioning human being impersonator.
Life of a transformer-robot-dinosaur is tough, you guys.